Memories of Broken Promises

Life’s farthest from being normal rite now...
Just trying hard enough, not to lose it.
It has become like a see saw,
It keeps bouncing back;
Sometimes the emotions
Sometimes the memories
Sometimes the dreams
Sometimes the anger
Sometimes the hate
Sometimes the love
Just changes color n keeps hitting me back.

It’s a strange feeling now,
Donno if this is love,
Or donno if its hate.
All I had is all gone away now,
Wonder why the shadow still remains.
If this continues for long,
All I will end up is pain,
And yet these feelings refuse to die out,
And keep coming back again.

All I am left with are memories,
But donno if I should cherish them.
For, they were the most beautiful things to ever happen to me,
And yet today it’s the same memories that come and haunt me.
Am I guilty in running away from them,
Will I be forgiven for trying to forget them?

For I was lucky to ever have experienced that joy,
And yet today I feel so unlucky for having lost all I had.
Maybe the circle will come around,
But will it be worth it without my love being around?
What good are those memories if the one they
lead to has gone away now, and I am left all alone;
Salvaging the pieces of a promise; that never saw the light of dawn.



- Anant