Assorted Thoughtz

Cant stop this feeling!
To stop I must understand it.
But how can I stop something
That I can’t understand.

Am I missing something
Or is it the feeling of losing,
That is making me feel this way.
I have no answers for now.

There is nothing new that has happened.
It’s just me and my thoughts.
Sometimes I feel why must my mind
Work so much.
And cause so much pain
When there is no purpose.

I am having a tough day I know,
But the reasons for it elude me.
Maybe it’s the assortment of feelings
That make me feel this way.

Or maybe it’s just who I am
An assortment of mixed feelings.
An opening for vented anger.
And a disaster for myself.

I donno what is in store for me.
Maybe that is what adds to the misery.
The veil behind what’s tomorrow.
The cloud that hides the rain.

I wish this phase gets over me,
So that I can find that cloud behind the rain.
But then again, how can I have sunshine
Without the rain?
Its very hard to convince myself,
When the only one I have to convince
Is myself.